I've decided to put my blogspot to more use. I was about to delete my old posts and start fresh then I thought that would defeat the purpose of a blog. Anyways, that's not what I came here to talk about. My birthday and trip to Paris are quickly approaching and what better way to prepare for these things then make a huge wishlist. Not only do I love procrastinating (totally ignoring my math book as I type this) but I'm addicted to online "window" shopping.

I've always wanted a plain black hoodie to wear under my pea coat on those "near death cold" days. Instead of a plain one why not a darling nautical (!!!) dark grey hoodie? Might I add, this would be totally cute to wear during cold summer nights (multipurpose!)

I swear by Levi jeans. I have an addiction to their "jegging" cut and I'm itching for a black pair. They don't have them on the Levi website so I am thinking they discontinued them but, they are still on Macy's website.

I'm quite jealous of every lady that has a pair of Lita's. I can't afford quite a purchase but I can afford Steve Madden knockoff's.

Two days ago my beloved tumbler broke. These types of glasses are the only ones I like drinking water out of, they don't sweat like glass. Of course I need one to rep my University.

I've been seeing many of my favorite tumblr ladies posting them wearing this. It's so cute with a high wasted skirt. I'm not much for the American Apparel price tag but I haven't found anything similar elsewhere.

This is a repeat from my wishlist last year. Being the Disney lover I am, I can't not have one of these.

Another wishlist repeater! I've been drooling over hot pink Doc Marten's since 2007. I had a pair of the cheetah print ones back when I was 12 (how styling :P) but they are now to big (yeah, I don't understand that). I can't even find these online anymore! This may be one item I will never own.

I turn 21 in 3 days. THREE DAYS?!?! Where did the time fly by? Oh and I got a job. What is this, I am growing up fast!
Because of these two things and some other personal things I chopped all my hair off for a very well needed change. This will hopefully kick off a bunch of other things changing in my life :]

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Yesterday, I went on a quick jog around some of the streets around me. Not only did it feel good to jog but I LOVED looking at all the cute houses. Next time I go out I'm taking pictures and posting some. I only went for about a mile but regardless, I did something.
Today, I went to the gym at 10pm after talking myself into it all day. I was just NOT feeling the gym and my shins were in pain from the previous day. 30 mins on the bike later I felt wonderful. I did lots of leg things afterwords and ended up leaving just as they were closing.

Good day, good day. Now to keep this up tomorrow!

I've been falling apart into pieces in the past two weeks. Rewind to 6-10th... I was far to busy to step foot into a gym or sleep. While I was so caught up in school related things I started feeling so disgusted by myself. This feeling has been ongoing. I finally made time for the gym on Tuesday. Sadly, I only managed to stay in their for a solid 30 minutes before almost falling asleep. I felt SO much better after that 30 minutes but the next day waking up I went right back to feeling disgusted with myself. I haven't had a chance to get back into the gym AND I just started my period so I don't even feel up to moving let alone sweating, ew. Monday I will get back to my schedule of working out every other night and every other morning. I was doing so good and I was feeling so good. Have I seen any results? Of course not, that doesn't help keep me encouraged to say the least.

I'm still trying to stick with this. I really want to feel better about myself by the end of the semester. I say this all the time and become to busy to change things but I have to do this for myself, my sanity.

I woke up early Monday (7am) and hit the gym. I am definatly more out of shape then I thought, yikes. BUT, I ended up staying for 40 mins of fun (elliptical and bike). I wasn't hurting by today so I instantly knew I didn't work myself hard enough. Tonight I went for roughly an hour. I decided to hit the bike the whole time because I was feeling a little lazy. Almost 20 miles and 326 calories later, I feel great! I am hoping that some part of me will be hurting tomorrow.

I'm planning on waking up at 8 tomorrow and being at the gym by 830 for a nice 30-45 min work out. Maybe I will feel risky enough to get on the weights!

Day 1

I've promised myself all summer that once school started back I would start paying attention to my body once again. And of course, keeping a blog will keep me motivated to keep going even during those weeks when I don't see a difference.

Tomorrow starts kickboxing, of course I double scheduled myself and won't be able to attend the first day SO I am waking up early to head to the gym for an hour (or so :P). We shall see how it goes, it's been awhile since I've been to an actual gym. Normally I just go on runs or do some portion of the 30 Day Shred.

A couple things I should make clear
1. I am doing this for myself. I've been unhappy with the way I let myself go and I want to feel good about myself once again.
2. I will never be skinny like how normal American's view skinny, and I am fine with that. I have huge tits, big hips, and legs of a figure skater.
3. I don't ever weigh myself. Numbers just make me depressed, this is more about how I feel and how things look on me.

Miss Selfridge wishlist

I feel like I've been living under a rock. Why didn't anyone ever tell me about Miss Selfridge? It's my dream wardrobe!




I have a weakness for Mickey & Minnie Mouse. Look at how precious they are!







The butt of the panties are what got me, a lace heart!


You can click each picture to see it on the website :]